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Bella's POV

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Edward was back. He was back for a week now. And for a week he's been avoiding me. I know it shouldn't be affecting me as I have already decided to be with Atlas, to be his but I can't help feel disappointed whenever he passes without even acknowledging my existence.

I know it's the mate bond that's doing all that but I can't help it that's why I decided to confront him for one last final time.

I saw him standing by his car across the lot at Forks High. The Volvo gleamed like always immaculate, untouchable just like him. This time, he didn't even look at me- again. Not once.

I stood by my own car, fists clenched at my sides. The rain hit the asphalt in gentle patters, but in my chest, a storm was building. It had been days weeks since he'd said a word to me.

He'd vanished after Atlas came to Forks. No goodbye. No explanation. No closure. I know he doesn't owe me anything as we aren't anything official.

But I truly thought of giving him a chance. A genuine one. But time and time he has disappointed me.

At first, I'd told myself he was scared. Conflicted and overwhelmed like me. Unlike me has no one to talked through.

But that excuse wore thin.

Now, watching him laugh with Emmett like nothing ever happened, something inside me cracked.

I walked up to him, each step louder in my ears than the last. He turned at the sound of my approach, those golden eyes unreadable and… cold.

"Edward," I said, voice tight.

He blinked. "Bella."

Just that.

My name taken as if I were a stranger. A classmate he hadn't spoken to in years.

"You're just going to pretend nothing happened?" I asked. "That there was no bond between us?"

My tone was accusing and that was hypocritical of me but when he flinched slightly, I couldn't help but feel twisted a dark sense of satisfaction

"It's… better this way." He said.

"For who? You?"

"For you."

I laughed, sharp, bitter. "Right. Because avoiding me, treating me like I don't exist, is somehow protecting me?"

"You don't understand what you're asking for," he said, voice quiet, a whisper of martyrdom like always. "You don't know what it means to be bonded to someone like me."

My hands curled into fists. "You think I haven't felt it? That pull between us? You think I didn't lose sleep over it, didn't wonder if maybe- maybe you actually cared?"

His face remained impassive. He said nothing. I think he meant something different to what I shouted like he thinks he's cursed or something but the rage in me made me avoid all that.

My voice lowered to a growl. "But then Atlas came back, and suddenly everything made sense. How it's supposed to feel. You're not supposed to feel cold in your mate's presence, Edward. You're supposed to feel whole like me mom and others feel in his."

Something flickered in his expression. Jealousy? Regret? I didn't care.

He murmured, "You have a bond with him?"

My breath caught, then released in a low, trembling laugh. "No, Edward but you know what soon I will. It's better to have it with someone who cares than with someone who's pretending I don't even exist. Just because he's too much of a coward to deal with it."

"But its unnatural!" He growled making me take a step back.

He probably saw my reaction and tried to apologise but a I cut him off before he could.

"What's unnatural is how easy it was for you to throw me away." I saw hurt flashed in his cold face and that made me feel good.

"I… I was trying to give you a chance at a normal life." He said with a pained look that made me feel more pleasure than guilt. The weeks long anger being stroked.

"A normal life?" I repeated, my voice venomous intending to drive the dagger further in his unbeating heart. "I live with two vampires. My mother is one. I know about the Volturi, the supernatural, the rules. I'm past 'normal' and I'm not ashamed of it. You didn't push me away for me you did it for yourself. Because deep down, you didn't want me."

He said nothing.

But I wasn't done, I delivered one last final blow.

"You know what Atlas will soon transfer the mate bond to him, taking me as his woman. He will love me and fuck me like a real man like he does to your sister. I'm sure you know how you prying stalking cuck!!!"

I breathed roughly after shouting all that in one breath, I know many heard me in the parking as it was not empty but I did not care. I just enjoyed Edward's hurt face. I know what I said was not true as Atlas has place a Psychic shield around Rosalie and Alice similar to my own.

I turned from him without another word and walked straight to my car, my heart hammering and breath shaky from my crash out.

I hoped on to my car and drove out from the lot, ignoring the look I was receiving. By the time I reached home, I was done.

Done with Edward and his punished demon crap.

And soon Atlas will transferred the bond and I will stop feeling whatever sadness I feel towards him.

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